Everyone loves me for my past, but they always hate me in the present.

Why can't you just meet me somewhere in the middle?

***

So I'm gonna rant a little.

Finally. Finally ADTR releases their new album, Common Courtesy. At first I thought they were gonna release it last year, when they did that countdown. It turned out it was for the release of their single Violence (Enough is Enough) instead. I was a bit disappointed but listening to Violence made me more excited to wait for the full album. Didn't know it'd take me almost 10 months of waiting though.

Now, now, I claim myself to be a big fan of ADTR but I'm not really the kind that keeps myself up-to-date with the band's latest news. In fact, I don't do that with my other favourite bands too. I'm the type that don't bother much about the artists but more on their songs. I'm sorry. With that said, I didn't know that ADTR had some issues with their label, hence delaying the progress of their album. My bad. *slowly rips off 'I AM ADTR'S BIGGEST FAN' sticker from my forehead*

But alas, they won the rights to self-publish their album and here we have this gem, finally. Words can't even describe how I felt when I first heard all the songs. My emotions were overloading. I can't say this is their best album to date since I love all of them equally but heck, this is one hell of an album. I love how Common Courtesy reminded me of For Those Who Have Heart, the first ADTR album I listened to back in high school. Jeremy's voice has grown a lot, I have to add.

I knew for this week's Mixtape Saturday I have to post one of the songs in this album, but choosing one is near impossible since all of the songs has its own charm. I Remember, the last track of this album fits perfectly. I love how Jeremy reminisces the old memories of sleeping in a van, playing in an empty room and all. It felt personal and we as fans feel so much closer to the band. Oh how much has this band grow.

I can't even.

Some people can be so so talented.

I'm envious.

A new year, a new beginning.

2013 is here. So surreal to think that I've been breathing for almost 22 years now. Twenty-two. Darn I'm old. Mum got married at 22 and here I am still living under my shell, still scared about what future beholds, still clueless about my directions, still trying very hard to figure myself out. 

And still boyfriend-less wtf.

Ha.

2013, I pray you be pleasant. I hope great adventures await me. I hope I can finally walk with my head up high. I hope to be more free. I hope to worry less. I hope to smile more. I hope to love more. I hope to be more confident. I hope to finally accept myself for who I really am. I hope to be a better daughter, a better friend, a better person.

I hope I can be me.

This song is just perfect.

Suddenly felt like listening to Broadway again.

Plus, cute guys on my blog won't hurt anyone lol.

Ryan, I want to keep you in pocket and let you sing me lullabies everynight.

I miss this band.

*loops song*

Because what else is much more adorable than watching my boys, albeit struggling, dressing up in suits for a team photo?

I question the look of the suits but hey, everyone looked as dashing as ever nonetheless.

Visca el Barca!

This song;

I'm can't even express with words how I love this song. Or how much I love, love the album 'At War' altogether. Such a shame this band has decided to split up. Such a shame.

Last song syndrome.

*sobs

Cules' reaction after Torres' goal.

Can I just?

*sobs

All of them deserve chocolate chips cookies omg.

How I wish to be at Camp Nou supporting my team and experience the amazing atmosphere at this magnificent of a stadium.

In every match.

*sobs

Shit I need to move to Spain lah liddis.
Is there any awesome graphic course in Barcelona cause I seriously could consider enrolling it.

:P

Always, forever, win or lose, I'm proud of this team and these players.
VISCA EL BARÇA!

LMAO

Wtf is this.

Stop making awkward TV commercial Messi pleaseee.

Ahahahaha

xD

I can't even with this band's perfection.

Seriously, I can't even.

LMAO

Out Of Sight

*_________________*

One of my ultimate wish is to see this awesome band singing this awesome song, live. 

The buildup is just, ugh, bone-chilling. 

Everythingaboutthissongandthisbandisperfectandanyfurtherarguementsshallforeverbeinvalid.

*breathes in*
Jeremy, you're the epitome of perfection.

Yes, yes you are!

Nao, should I just spend RM600 to see them in Indonesia or?

Josh u so foineeeee.

*_____*

This is what happened when you're on Wikipedia for too long.

I didn't know they sang this song before. I thought this song was Ella's.

And I'm not ashamed to admit this was one of the songs that I like in primary school.

I'm pretty sure you did, too.

:D

Thought of the day:

to go home or to not go home?

*ponders*

**

How is this even possible?

Tyler your voice is sooo beautiful.

Gah.

I've been working on with my Minor project since dawn. I'm tired of it but I can't stop. We have a pre-assessment first thing tomorrow. I shivered thinking about the other assignments I have. Advert, 2D animation, web design, etc. I hope I can finish all of them on time.

Pictures of Smokee because I need to smile.

I have mixed feelings right now. Something happened and I'm bothered by it. It is still very much a doubt but the thought of it actually being true shatters my heart. I don't what I'd do if it is actually the truth. It would probably kill me. I can't keep the thoughts about it off my mind. It is affecting me. It is going in the way of me doing my work. I can't think straight. I'm just too disturbed by it.

If it is true, how could he?

I feel like crying but I can't afford being emotional now. I tried putting this matter to the side but it keeps on coming back, haunting me till some point I just don't know what to do anymore but to call someone. At least I can get it off my chest for a bit.

God is really testing me.
God is really testing us.
All I can do now is to pray for His guidance and blessing.
Amin.

**

What is wrong with the crowd? If I were there I'm pretty sure I'll go crazy jumping up and down and singing along. 

Btw Lisa is right. I really should get a Tumblr if I want to make short posts like this.

xD

I'm off to bed good morning everyone!